I didn’t get it and I almost missed it. (Also Stop, Drop & Roll)
God kept saying the same thing to me over and over again but I wasn’t getting it. Actually I thought I was getting it. I thought I “got it” so good I was teaching it. Telling you how to do it. Yet, I didn’t really actually get it myself.
I have an addiction. I’m honestly not trying to be dramatic or funny. I’m addicted to trying to make things perfect. I’m a perfectionist. I’ve always kind of known that about myself but I truly had no idea how bad it really was. It doesn’t look like what I thought it should look like so I didn’t really get it. I’m not a perfectionist with tangible things. I’m not a slob but I’m ok with a little mess in my home. The inside of my car is not a disaster but it’s not constantly a flawless sight either. My physical surroundings are less than perfect sometimes and I’m ok with that.
My relationships are less than perfect sometimes though. The people I love are less than perfect sometimes though. I am less than perfect sometimes though. And I’m not ok with that. Whatever the most extreme, opposite of “ok” could be, that’s where you’ll find me slowly rocking back and forth.
I feel like the imperfections HAVE to be dealt with. We HAVE to work on this. Fix this. Oh and we need to do it RIGHT NOW. There’s something here and we must fix it before we can do anything else. Certainly before we can enjoy anything else. How could we enjoy anything with all this less than perfect floating around?! I can’t relax or be at peace or enjoy anything else until we acknowledge and fix this! I actually feel panic inside when there’s an emotional mess. A non-tangible mess of any kind. I desperately want to find the answer. Fix it. Make it all better. Right now. Then I will be at peace. At least until I notice the next imperfection. Then we get to start all over. Sound fun? Want to be my friend?
Oh my gosh. What a disaster for me and those who love me.
If you’ve read anything I’ve posted recently...what have I been saying for weeks?! What has God been trying to teach me in my life again and again? Perfection isn’t real! Or attainable, or necessary. There are no perfect situations, certainly no perfect people, and guess what? God is still good and all those situations and people are still good anyway!
Remember my porch experience? Not flawless. Murderous spider trying to kill me. Not perfect. But AMAZING! What a weekend!
Remember my step-son’s outdoor message? So not perfect. Blaring car alarm! Loud train horn, tow truck! And yet, a beautiful move of God in the lives of so many teenagers including my own.
God never needs anything to be perfect for it to be good if he is in it!
I put it in bold and underlined it for you. You are welcome.
None of my relationships will ever be perfect. Oh but they can still be so good. None of the people I know will ever be perfect. But they are so much more! I will never be perfect. Yet God still wants to do so much in me and through me. In and through those relationships and all of those people.
Do I have any other sufferers out there?! Can we all shout in PERFECT unison “AMEN!”. Thank you.
God wants desperately to break through our perfectionist little bubbles and free us! (and subsequently free all those we love and who love us)
The one thing we have to do is actually probably the hardest thing for us to do.
I mean it.
But it’s the only way:
Yep. Let go. Let it all go. Release our death grip and let. it. go.
Let it all go into his faithful and more than capable hands.
Surrender my relationships to him. Yes, even that one.
Surrender all the people I love to him. Yep, even him. Even her.
Surrender all of myself to him.
Surrender. Give it all over to him.
And then when I go back in 15 minutes and pick it back up, be willing to go surrender it again.
And then again.
Be willing to stop trying to fix it, figure it out, find the solution. Just stop.
Be willing to lay it back down each and every time I pick it up. In other words, just drop it.
Oh I like where this is going. Once you drop it, roll it on over to God for him to take care of it. It’s the new STOP, DROP AND ROLL!
Stop doing it yourself, drop it out of your incapable hands, roll it on over to the one who is capable. I actually think we’ll get more use out of this stop, drop and roll. I need this multiple times a day. After 40 years I have actually ever been on fire.
Somewhere along the way we trusted, we let go to someone else and they failed us. We’ve been burned. We’ve been hurt, disappointed, let down. So we stopped letting go. We stopped trusting anyone else and we just trusted in ourselves. And now we think we can make everything alright if everyone would just do what we say! ;)
But they won’t. They never will. And they shouldn’t.
My sweet, sweet sister, he is so faithful. He is so trustworthy. I know it’s scary. The tears are streaming as I type. We’re afraid. We are afraid of what will happen if we really let go and trust someone else.
What I have to understand, what we have to understand is that God is not going to drop the ball.
I do have some news for you. It’s breaking. Like news breaking kind but also heartbreaking kind.
We aren’t God. You aren’t. Me either.
We don’t know it all. We don’t always know best. We don’t always have the answer or have it all figured out. We don’t really know what’s best for us and every person and relationship in our lives.
We just don’t.
God does. He so does. It’s what he does. It’s kind of his thing.
"Even from eternity I am He, And there is none who can deliver out of My hand; I act and who can reverse it?" Isaiah 43:13
And looking at them Jesus said to them, "With people this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26
"Behold, I am the LORD, the God of all flesh; is anything too difficult for Me?" Jeremiah 33:27
‘I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is the same as the mighty strength he exerted when he raised Christ from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every name that is invoked, not only in the present age but also in the one to come. And God placed all things under his feet and appointed him to be head over everything for the church, which is his body, the fullness of him who fills everything in every way.” Ephesians 1:18-22
He’s got it.
When we choose to surrender it to him we are doing the best possible thing in the world. Please let it go. Trust him. I promise he will take care of you and it and all them too. :)
Will you give him a chance to show you?
Lay it down. Right now, just tell him. Surrender.
And in a minute, or an hour, or a day when you realize you’ve picked up again simply release it back to him.
Be free sweet friend. Be at peace.
"You will keep in perfect peace
those whose minds are steadfast,
because they trust in you.
Trust in the Lord forever,
for the Lord, the Lord himself, is the Rock eternal." Isaiah 26:3-4